Hopelessly Lost

Okay, I am in a very depressed mood right now. (Sorry Dylan. You are trying to talk to me about Peter Pan.) In the last hour I have been wondering around Internet job sites and taking online personality tests. Nothing seems to be working. In fact, instead of being closer to knowing what I want to do with the rest of my life, I am even less sure! GRRR! I don't want to make a decision that I am not going to be happy with ten years from now. What I like to do has little options (e.i. History, English) besides teaching. Kudos to you who are teachers, but it is not for me. And of the jobs that are out there, there is limited availability. For example, I would like to work on Broadway, doing techie stuff, you know, but how many of them do they really need? And I don't want to go to school to be a techie. I'm not a computer geek. I don't know squat about computers. I wish I was more outgoing, and I liked being around people. I want a doctorate, but that is even worse, because then you are so specialized it is unbelievable. I already know I don't want to be a doctor, partly from an extreme detest for hospitals and partly from an overall dislike of Science. Then what? Law? Okay, I'll concede interest, but still there is the I am not outgoing factor. I don't even know if I would be smart enough for a doctorate program. I have a tendency to collect information and then throw it away when it is no longer needed. In fact, that's the story of half my high school career. This is why I don't want to grow up. This is why I detest decision making. This is why I just want to be a student forever. I wonder how much I would have to pay someone to make these decisions for me. Curses upon people who ask the unanswerable questions. Do you know what schools are you interested in? Do you know what you want to go into?Do you know what types of careers appeal to you? No, thank you and good night.